I forget

I think of things to post about, but then I forget what they are. Last night I went to Drawing II class intent on getting some work done with the help of Baker. I opened the door to my back seat, and to what did my wondering eyes appear? Why it was a sleigh, and 8 tiny reindeer! But not my drawing! Cause I guess I just decided to walk out of the house without it and drive 30 minutes out of my way singing Lucinda (Luchinda...) for NO REASON AT ALL.

I called Angie and went over there instead. There was a 19 year old girl at her house, no background story needed, she was just there and wow, was she 19. We were watching Sex & the City. She kept saying "She's ugly. God she is ugly. What is she wearing?" and I was trying to watch the fucking show so I replied "Fashion." But that didn't help, cause she kept talking. She talked about this boy that she's slept with for two years and how he never calls and she has to call him, and why doesn't he call her? So I said "Um, cause he doesn't have to, sweetie." and she said he's the best looking guy that's ever had anything to do with her. (strangle) And she wondered why she keeps calling if he doesn't care. And I said "That's a good question."

And then she kept saying how all the women on this show were ugly, and their clothes were gross. And did I mention, ugly?

Her dad yelled at her over the phone about something cause she did something really immature like not calling to tell him where she was. And she was freaking out like it was the end of the world. By the time she left, I was about to SNAP!

What I wanted to say:

Look, if he doesn't call you, it's for one reason. He's not thinking about you. Not until he gets horny, anyway, and no one else is around. You two aren't friends. You aren't lovers. You aren't his girlfriend. You are his groupie. Men don't call because they don't want to call. If they wanted to call, no amount of broken fingers would stop them. How about this? How about you stop getting your validation from some man and start depending on yourself to be your biggest fan?

Those women are not ugly. Just because a woman doesn't fall into the category of a 19 year old girl that looks and dresses exactly like you and your friends doesn't make her ugly. It makes her different. Now, sheep like other sheep, baby, so you go on and stay in your pasture. The rest of us, we realize that beauty comes in different shapes and sizes and wears clothes we don't understand BUT THAT'S OKAY! It's okay to be different. Sarah Jessica Parker may not have perfect features but she's still gorgeous because she works that shit. And Kim Cattrell is ugly? YOU ARE SO LUCKY I DON'T COME OVER THERE AND SMACK YOU HARD!

Wow, your dad is irritated? Whooo, that's a rough one. Why don't you go home and text message your friends about it? Hey! I know! Write some poetry, too. Wait wait.. I got it. Write some poetry about it and text it to the guy that won't call cause I bet that'll change his mind.

*sigh*

Now I feel better.

(and also terribly mean)