Lunch hour, distance, and sinus medication

I want to delete my below post full of bitterness towards Tim McGraw and life in general but I'm not going to. However, I will say that I had a moment of clarity today during the song "All by Myself". XM radio, hoo-ray. You are truly the soundtrack of my life. (though I wish my soundtrack was porno music, but I'll take what I can get)

Anyway, I just realized I was being silly this morning, to get all upset about being alone when in fact I am not alone. My ex-husband and I still talk, we still make bad jokes about getting a divorce, and for the most part, we're pretty cool for people ending a marriage.

I have friends and family, and as I was sitting here crying about how lonely I am I got IMs from two and a call from another. Boo-hoo-hoo, I'm all alone, let me just grab this call from my best friend who is calling to see how I am. Then I'll commence to crying about how no one loves me (those bastards!) right after I answer my IMs.

(I still hate that song, though. And Tim McGraw can go to hell.)

I was talking to my friend Sonya this afternoon, and we discussed how it is so easy to feel all alone. So tempting to get self-involved and think that our problems are harder than others. In reality, I have people that love me and a roof over my head, a paycheck, and hopefully in the next few years, a degree. I sat here feeling sorry for myself when I shouldn't have.

For all my friends that hear my crying jags and irrational outbursts where I'm an old maid with a bunch of cats.. I apologize.

Thanks for listening.