Giving Thanks

This is a very long and probably self-serving annoying blog... but I just wanted to publicly thank some people, since it is the season and all.

God. Thanks for not giving up on me yet. That you, in all your God-ness, have never walked away from me. That is a miracle.

I am thankful for my heartbreak. Through my heartbreak, I hope, I have become more compassionate to people who's hearts are breaking, too. Heartbreak makes you grow up, makes you look at things in a new way, and forces you to start something new. It doesn't feel great, but it hasn't killed me yet. I hope it's made me a better person. It's definitely made me thinner, and that's pretty cool, too.

I am thankful that I'm leaving the house again. I'm not at home in the dark watching Buffy on DVD. I'm not hiding out in my house from the rest of the world and thinking it's good. I'm thankful that I realized that I belong out in the world, with people I can see and touch.

Fleegans! Every last one of them. You guys.. *sniff* I love you guys! LOVE! I don't say it enough. Geez, I hate getting emotional. You guys suck for making me love you so much. I hate you guys.

Dad... you don't read my blog. But you take my trash to the street and get my mail for me sometimes, and you get the pine needles off my roof, and you know what? I appreciate that.

Suzie!! My sister. She is so amazing, and strong, and beautiful. The one person on the face of the earth, that no matter what I did, she would love me. And I love her, and I want to be more like her. She needs her own blog about how fucking AWESOME she is, people. I could write for days. AWESOME SHE IS AWESOME AND I LOVE HER!

Angie.... Good Lord, I am so lucky that God saw fit to give me the gift of Angie. She's MY best friend. How'd I get so lucky? For all the nights I spent sobbing on your couch this year, Angie... I thank you. For all the times you offered to beat people up that made me cry, thank you. For all the hugs, homecooked meals, use of your washing machine, and laughter.. thanks, bitch.

Alex? Thanks for forgiving me. We both know I don't deserve it. You are okay. SOMETIMES. And you have stupid hair.

Stephanie, thank you for making me laugh all the time. Your randomness amazes the fuck out of me. I love that I'm a hero to you, but please don't be like me. Except, I mean, be how incredibly awesome I am, but don't make the same mistakes, okay?

Sonya.. thank you for the weekend I spent at your place when I thought that I would die from heartbreak. I wouldn't have made it through without you, chicky. Staying up all night whispering saved me more than you could EVER, EVER know. That was a close one.

Work.. If I thanked my co-workers I'd be here all day, and it'd be gross and boring and I'd cry. It was a place to go when I felt I had nothing, filled with people that love me. WHY do you guys love me so much? Really? I'm still trying to figure it out. I love you guys, too.

JSU.. My professors are fantastic. Mrs. Green, the art dept. secretary, rocks my face off. My drawing class is full of a bunch of comedians and I love all you bitches desperately.


I am the luckiest chick in the world, man.