Dysfunction Junction

There is this new concept I've been playing around with to *stop* doing things that are descructive to me, that hurt me, and that make me feel bad about myself. In their place, I've been thinking about doing things that make me smile, make me feel good about me, and help other people. I know! What the fuck, Cookie? That's some kinda crazy jibber-jab talkin'!

I've always spent a lot of time on the internet. Ever since I discovered it, it has been a pretty much constant source of amusement for me. Lately, it seems like nothing more than something that in the long run, hurts me. Though I have a handful of friends that I met via the internet that I would love to (and plan to) keep, I have decided that my life probably needs to be lived in real time, and not in a game or an IM window. There is this place that I recently discovered, and it's called "Outside". It's not as bad as I originally thought. (until June/July, then I will shun it again until Mid-September)

I say on my blog all the time that I am so lucky to have such great friends and co-workers. I am. But still the siren song of the internet calls to me, and no matter how hard I try to resist, I keep crashing against the rocks. I've met some fantastic people online. I'm keeping my friendships with those people because they make me happy, and hopefully I make them happy, too. I mean, after all, if it wasn't for the Internet, I would never have spent that year in college.

HA! I crack myself up. What I meant to say was, if it wasn't for the Internet, I wouldn't have befriended the Fleegans, who I love dearly, each and every one of them.

I don't want to talk about "The Others" that I meet online, as really, what's the point? We all know that there are people out there that make us feel bad about ourselves. I don't think they are bad people, I just think they are not the kind of people I want to surround myself with on a daily basis. I finally got it through my head that if someone makes me feel like shit about myself on a daily basis, this is not a friendship I want to pursue. What a concept!

The first thing I'm going to do is to stop playing SWG. It was fun while it lasted. I made my little toon into a Jedi, wheee! Unfortunately, as in most games, there are people that take the game too seriously. I don't want to become one of those people. It's just a game. If I have to remind myself it's just a game on a daily basis, then that means it probably isn't fun anymore. I will miss my SWG buddies. *sniff* I don't even really want to quit, but for my own sanity, I should. So instead of saying I should do something and then never doing it, I'm actually gonna this time.

It's very hard to say goodbye. So I'll probably just say....

Seacrest Out!